Creeping.

So everyone's a creeper, whether it be out in the open or secretly. With gadgets like facebook, twitter, formspring, TV, phones, the 21st century has literally signed an "OK" on the creeping act of 2000-2100 (OK not literally).

A few days ago I put something along the lines of "found a new hobby: taking photos of peoples tattoos while being a ninja" on facebook. Instantly a few people liked it and i got comments saying how i was a creep. Hello, you just said I'm a creep, by creeping and seeing what I was doing. I creeped out loud, but you're just a closet creep. Then today creeper karma came back to haunt me, this random (cute) blonde hipster/scene hybrid chick sat at a table behind me and took a few pics of me when I "wasn't looking". Creeper? Yes. Was she cute? Hell yes, if this girl asked for my digits id be like ### ### ####(censored phone number) fo sho!

Creeping has made it so that perfectly cute girls, have become awkward. Darwinism were are you? Good looking people are not suppose to be creeping in the real world. Isn't that some shit? That technology not only hindered our ability to do physical task, and proved Darwinism wrong, but also disabled our ability to be social.

I believe this brings my count to Technology: 3, Darwinism:0.

Want to see if you are a creeper, then answer these few questions. Do you have a Facebook, Twitter, Formspring? Do you spend more time on your mini feed and other peoples pages, then your own? have you called someone a creeper on the internet? Do you like at least 1 thing on facebook not posted by you a day? Do you read stuff by other people and not tell them?

If you answered yes to any of these, chances are you are a creeper. If you said no, you're probably a closet creeper, or a liar.

But whatever, it's ok. The internet did sign off on your rights to creep. Go for it, whatever.

P.S. Creepy five guys girl who took pictures of me while I was waiting for my burger, facebook me.

Hell?

In the mist of playing halo 3 last night I had an ephinpy, now this is going to sound weird but hear me out. What if there is no such thing as hell? (i know, i know just hear me out).

Some people believe the God created all of us, and everything around us, right? This means that he loves us, by nature (a mother and father can't hate their kin because they made them). So why would he create a world of just pure torture? I think that hell is perspective based, but it actually is everyone's own personal heaven.

For example, for a person who lived in gluttony, a place were all they had to do is eat and do nothing would be heaven to them; however that same place would be "hell" to someone super athletic on a strict diet. To greedy people a place were all they would do is take for themselves and not care about others would be heaven, while a person who loves to share and puts others needs in front of their own would consider that "hell". So although it seems like a "hell" to someone who doesn't live that lifestyle, its heaven for people who do live that way.

Now in a world were people live all happy and friendly, this WOULD be "hell" for someone who is a misanthrope. Somewhere that people all share and live happily while sharing, would be "hell" for a hoarder, who cherishes every last item they have. Hell can just be a place you don't want to be, it doesn't have to be demons and fire. Actually the "devil" was once an angel and he didn't like the way things were going so he was sent to a place were he could do whatever he wanted.

Don't get the idea of this wrong, I am in fact a Christian. Is it possible that I'm completely wrong and hell is like a place were you go if you are bad, and is all flames and pain? Yes. But is it possible that I am right? Most likely not, but maybe. I mean both "hells" have the same concept. Live your life the way you want to live your afterlife, it's just that the more mainstream idea is trying to scare you into doing that.

Gone for Vacation 19-24/Setting my goals

So I figure that I should write an interesting blog on some sort of topic, with a witty title that draws your attention (Since I am going away for a little while). Then, almost immediately, I thought why should I? I write for myself, and I treat this blog like a diary. Once I stray too far from that, I'm going to write mindless filth for your dirty little eyes. Seriously, I honestly don't even care if you read this... as a matter go away, you shouldn't be reading my thoughts anyways (I'm just kidding) no really though. If you like what I write that's cool, I guess. If you don't, that's pretty chill too.

I guess this is sort of a reality check/rethinking my motives behind this whole blogging thing. Once I think of blogging as something I have to do, instead of something i really enjoy doing. This whole ordeals is going to suck for both of us. Look I'm not saying that we are breaking up, I'm not even saying that we are going to have to break up in the future. I'm just saying i need some space OK? Don't cry I'll be back soon, but until then I'll be writing on the DL, the down low.

-With Love,

Zack

What's The Deal About Deal Breakers [Part 1.]

Here's a small list, that I've been keeping mentally, of my deal breakers with the opposite sex. Deal breakers are those few qualities that you notice about someone, that you just can't overlook. It's something that, when spotted, outweigh the redeeming qualities about a girl.

Deal Breakers:

- Overly Obnoxious/Loud.

- Can't dress.

- Smokes.

- Taller then me.

- Thinks being ditsy is cute.

- Doesn't have any individual thought.

- Hung up on the past.

- Has a drastic amount of hair.

- Doesn't do anything athletic.

- Doesn't like music

- Doesn't want to leave the house

- Lives under a rock/Oblivious to the world

- Non-Conversationalist

- Jealous type

- Terminal illness (No walk to remember for me i guess)

- Talks more then they think

- Tries to be "cool"

- Ghetto

- Could fight better then I can

- Ugly

- Younger or older then me by more then 2 years

- More athletic then I am

- Unhygienic

- LAZY.

- Talks about drinking/partying

- Anti-social

- Has/Had a penis

Yeah that's a few for now, maybe I'll update this in a few months. Maybe not, whatever.

Grrr i'm a tough guy, lol jk I think before i act

You get your boys and I'll get my boys, and they will get their boys, boys... yeah, save it Mr. masculine man, I don't want to fight you, or 20 of your distant friends. I just want to do my own thing. Why are some people so randomly hostile to strangers? More importantly, why do they let random people, that they don't know, ruin their day. And for what? to get their daily dose of Asshole Concentrate?

Some people do it to "impress" their friends because it makes them look super awesome, others just have undeveloped brains. Either way, it's no excuses to make a jackass out of yourself in public. For example, today at Maloof everyone was doing their own thing, just trying to have fun. The skaters were being skaters, the bmxers being bmxers. Everyone was getting snaked (cut in front of), and everyone was getting frustrated. This one kid mentioned how the bmxers were destroying the marble hubbas (side of stairs), which was true. One bmxer over herd and decided to go ape shit on him, yelling and screaming and trying to fight the kid. The kid obviously didn't want to fight him, which made the bmxer look like an ass, so the bmxer went to all his friends saying how they were going to "get him later".

Watching from about 3 feet away I thought that there was a few things wrong with the picture. One, the comment was generalized, true, and a known fact (bikes DO destroy marble surfaces). Two, the smaller kid obviously did not want to fight a guy three times his size. Finally, why does everything always turn into "we'll get him later" when people opt. not to fight? Does one's dignity get so bruised that they feel a need for physical conflict, or is it like a guy thing? I actually stayed around a while and noticed that all the bmxers involved in the conflict left way before the skater did, which i found funny.

I feel that all problems in the world can be talked through; however that does require both sides of the party to be willing to cooperate, and (more importantly) listen. For some reason most guys just can't talk it out, ESPECIALLY about the stupidest stuff. Actually the only person worse at talking it out then guys, is girls. Girls will rip each other to emotional shreds before even thinking about talking to each other, with rumors, trash talk, general being mean to each other. They are the worst. Maybe the world just isn't ready for verbal agreements.

True Friends- The People That Merc Sluts, and Bust Nuts.

Friends you can't live with them you can't live without them (shut up you use cliches too). Your true friends are the people that will bust your balls 24/7, but when someone else tries to make fun of you, they want to fit 9 people in a car and fight them. It's amazing when you find out who your true friends are, and the circumstances you find them in.

For example, today (we'll call him PoSpring) a guy, "PoSpring", was apparently talking crap about me (teenage drama much?) saying how my parents don't love me because they send me to boarding school, and how I'm a closet gay, which honestly doesn't bother me because both are nonfactual. Well anyway, he told this to my friend, Mr. Asian Man, who told my other friends. eventually it got around to a lot of my friends and they all wanted to fight this kid, PoSpring.

Since I'm not really the fighting type I tried to talk them out of it, it's really dumb in the bigger picture. Seriously it's just one kid talking crap on the internet, BFD. It's really bad for your spiritual health to hold grudges, but I did learn a lot from this experience, like who my true friends are. Pretty cool really. Thanks Guys!

Side Note: Talking crap about people is very petty, it's super negative karma and it makes you look foolish. If you are going to try and disrespect/make fun of someone, don't use information that is not substantial. You will make a jackass out of yourself, and no one is going to take your side. Say only solid facts that have been proven, and don't say anything about another person that can be directly referred to something that you have done.

Asshole (figurative)

People are assholes(myself included)(well sometimes). Why? Nature, nurture, survival of the fittest, or maybe they are just plain insecure about themselves. Some people take pleasure at watching when other people fail, and others find it comedic when people get hurt. Most of society will look for everything wrong about you before they even begin to try and accept you. It's really a pretty sad thing to witness, and you will notice it more once you try to.

For example, when most people see me they will assume that I'm gay. Partially because, for some reason, it's funny for some teenagers to laugh at gay people, it's terrible I know. After about a 5 min conversation with me, most people give up that assumption, and some will keep it in the back of their mind. Now in public, just because I wear v-necks, I will get small snickers from groups of teens because of it. Do I care? No. But when you laugh at someone you don't know for no apparent reason, it makes you look like a pretty shallow person. I mean seriously, you're judging them by their outer appearance and trying to humiliate them for no reason(well status, and if you are doing it for that, please don't try and befriend me.) because of it.

Getting back on topic (were we ever off it?), Did you see the news about the homeless man that saved a girls life, got stabbed and laid there for a few hours until he DIED. Very noble of him right? To go and save that girls life, but of course there is more to the story. Apparently after saving this girls life and getting stabbed, a bunch of people walked by him and didn't help him! Some people actually poked him with sticks and took pictures of him on their camera phones. Really, is this the society we live in now? That a guy can save some one's life, AND STILL die because of some fucking assholes who think he's disgusting and dirty. I'm not sure about you, but in my opinion every single person that walked by the man and didn't call 911, are way more disgusting and dirty then that homeless man. Walking assholes must smell really bad, right?

Just My Type: Victoria Justice

Now if you watch Nickelodeon you most likely know who this is, and if you don't, you might have a clue who this starlet is. This is Victoria Justice, she plays Tori Vega in Nick's show Victorious and she also played Lola from Zoey 101. She is an absolute doll. She is so cute in every way, from her personality to her looks. Victoria is 17 years old and she is Puerto Rican and Irish (do I have a thing for Irish girls?) and has an amazing voice. She even plays xbox, gamer girls are so hot.

She dresses really cute, given that she most likely has stylist and stuff, and she has really nice facial features. Victoria's character Tori is very modest and acts super adorable, she is well spoken, you don't she her stumbling on things to say, and she just doesn't seem like a ditsy girl at all. She has a pretty amazing fashion sense mixing new age and retro clothing pretty well. From her twitter (oh shut up i know you stalk people on the Internet too) she looks like she dresses hipster esque. Victoria (in real life also) speaks with some old 80's lingo, with words like bomb and phrases like peep a leeps, which is kind of really cute. She also likes photography, which is always a plus, and she guess starred in iCarly as Shelby Marx, who is this like beast MMA fighter.

I was crushed when I read her bio on twitter because she asks people with facial hair to be her friend. Now genetically this is nearly impossible for me to do, so even if she is just my type, I'm in no way her type. Heartbroken? Yes. Defeated? Never. For you Miss Victoria Justice I will try my best to grow a moustache.

You're Not a Puddle of Soda!

It's a really funny sight when people get angry at things that can't be helped or things that can't be controlled. 75% of the time when they get angry at nothing, they visibly make a fool out of themselves, the other 25% of the time they make a fool of themselves without anyone noticing.

Today on the bus, there was a lot of non-moving traffic on a busy street. The bus driver decides to honk, roughly 46 times, with no results. This made himself look very foolish but nobody noticed. However the a lean, 6 foot Chinese man that was on the bus was clearly outraged, he decides to yell "you stupid bull shit!" in very broken english towards the traffic. Half the bus let out a low chuckle (including myself)(sorry), and he(very clearly) made a fool out of himself. With that spilt second of impulsive behavior he had made a complete fool of himself, which probably made him even more angry then he was to begin with.

Traffic is something that we cannot control, it's a force that is put into our lives to slow us down. If we get mad about it what do we accomplish? Ruining our morning, or ruining our night it's your choice. There is an alternative, if that's what you were wondering, you can realize that traffic happens and try to make the best of it. We should all live on gladwin ave, such positive karma there.

In another note, if you meet someone uncultured call them a puddle of soda. I know it sounds strange but hear me out. Uncultured people are basically roaming our streets as drones completely oblivious to the real world. They have no idea as to what's going on, they just "live" day by day, well barely live. Like a puddle of soda they are not truly alive, and have no ambition to roam new areas, they are completely content with were they are now. Like a puddle of soda they will fizz for a bit then be flat and boring. So when you see someone not really contributing to anything, or they have been living under a rock for the past 5 years just say "you are a puddle of soda" they will be utterly confused and have no clue how to respond.

Who's Really The Donkey?

Assumptions, everybody makes them, but nobody wants them made about them.

Assumptions can be hurtful, think about it, you are making up things about other people (in your head) instead of getting to know them. In some cases, egotistical assholes tell people little things about other people to bring up their own self-esteem and make them feel better about themselves. In turn, the people being told this garbage might make assumptions about the person/people being talked about.

The assumptions that you make can make you hurt yourself as well. If you believe assumptions you should stop being nieve and try to learn new facts on other people, if make them you should stop and think about why, because its really not a good character trait to have. Don't assume that the water in front of you is 10 feet deep, and don't assume that everyone you meet will like you as soon as they meet you. You will make a jackass out of yourself either way. Even if you are right about your assumptions who cares? If we cared about our own ordeals as much as we care about other people, we could improve our moral standings by a lot.

You shouldn't assume anything about anyone because you have no reason to, and to be honest, it's probably going to be incorrect, I mean seriously, you don't see murderers saying "Oh I thought that he wanted me to stab him 46 times in the abdomen". But you always see people going "I think she's a slut, she made out with this guy I knew one time" or "he's so gay, look at him".

Next time you assume something about someone else, just think about what you're doing to your moral fiber, is it really worth it to think these stupid things about people (which don't pertain to you)?

Maloof Money Cup/Epic Day

Today was Maloof Money Cup day two, and all I can say is wow. This was one of the best experiences I've even had and a very good way to kick off the summer. I thank Frank and Marsh for inviting me and getting me into the event, respectfully. Maloof is a skateboarding competition were a lot of Am's and Pros's compete for money. Some of the craziest tricks I'veeven seen were brought to today's event.

Although I almost passed out from the heat and excitement, got a crazy farmers tan, and sat on those unforgiving metal bleachers for 7 hours, i would not trade that experience for anything else in the world. Maloof can only be described as a group of very talented men, who are doing what they have trained for and became good at for years, to win a cash prize. And this is simply an amazing site.

On top of all the Pros's and Am's that were there, LIL JOHN MADE AN APPEARANCE! (he even bumped into me at the CCS tent without saying sorry!)

Now to top off an amazing day I went to meet up with my bromantic other, who was with his girlfriend, and we got some of the best Italian ice in the world (opinion). Now I know that doesn't sound that amazing to you, but what about getting a sandwich that was made while she was topless (extremely unhygienic), and getting my hair shampooed? I know it sounds epic, and let me be the one to tell you, THAT IT WAS!

Now this is a little different then my usual blogging style, because I talked a lot more about my day then my thoughts, but hey, it was an amazing day. That is what we all want from life right? the thrills and excitement! Have an epic day!

Fair, So Unfair.

School's out and summers begun, now that can only mean one thing. It's fair season!

I don't think there was ever a time were a man made object could so perfectly describe one's mood, until now.

Fairs are wondrous and magnificent, were else can we spend 20 dollars to risk our lives in spinning metal death traps? Or better yet, to be spinning with your best buddy, or cute girls to ensure that you all die together. Previously I mentioned girls giving you earthquakes, I think that I can now "one up" that statement, some girls can give you the zipper. They can make you feel like you're falling backwards, flipping, going head over heels, and make you feel general anxiety. When you're with a girl and you ride the zipper with them, it is like a literal and figurative cluster of emotions.

What's better at a fair then almost getting raped at a fair? How about almost getting raped by a Demon Rapist Bear. Next time you're walking out of a 7/11 and one of the people that you are with (the blonde girl)(i love you Paige) suggest that you go into a creepy, over grown, fenced off area at night. Don't do it. Seriously, A growling roar/yawn from a hobo/bear sounded something like "arghhhhhhyahh", and it was not the most welcoming noise I've ever heard. We were out of there so fast, almost as fast as Hussein Bolt (OK not that fast)

While at the fair I noticed something, the severe rise in people smoking, drinking, and doing drugs. Did this always go on during fairs and I was just too young/naive to notice it, or is everyone just becoming more open about their "habits"?

Oh while on that topic, biggest turn off for me. Girls who do drugs/smoke. It's so bad for you, how do expect guys to respect you if you don't respect your body? Just saying, like I have nothing against smokers, and if you've ever been to a party with me I usually have a pack to give out, but I would never do it myself.

Oh Shit, It's The Friend Zone!

Ever see that movie Just Friends? Ever been rejected by a girl that's afraid to get hurt? Yes ladies and gentlemen this is the friend zone.

It happens to the best of us, actually the best of us are the one's put in it more frequently. Oh, you don't know what the friend zone is?! Here let me explain. Boy A likes Girl B, A being a really nice person, becomes friends with B and accidentally begins to have a crush on her. B thinks that they have become to valuable of friends, or even worse no longer considers A to be

potential for a relationship and thus puts them into the best friend category. This is the irreversible sign of the friend zone.

Now from here, when A tells B about how he feels about her, it will result (almost every time) like this

.

A- *insert long thing about how they like B here*

B- Awe that's so sweet, But I like the way we are now *A's heart implodes* I mean you're so funny, and such a good friend/guy but I don't think we'd work out. I really hope we can stay friends. Like I can tell you anything you know, I cant really do that with anyone else. We can still be friends right?

A- Yeah of course totally! lol sorry if i made things awkward bet

ween us! (of course this is the last thing that A wants to say)

B- OK good, don't worry, I mean it's a little awkward but i wont let it get in the way of things!

A- OK good I would love to have you as a friend.

Now let's break that down. It consist of several key elements. The girl will put the guy down softly, because she would hate to lose him as a friend. Then she will bring up a random instance about her life that's not relevant to your relationship. She will either apologize or say that they wont work out and lastly (every time) end it with a "but we can still be friends right?"

The elements with the guy is that he is basically "in love" with this girl. He will do anything in his power to not lose this girl even as a friend, so of course (poor fella) will eat up everything she says. He will mistakenly take "good guy" as he has a chance, and " we can still be friends right?" as in the future they might go out.

The friend zone is a pretty terrible place to be, actually most people end up not talking to one another after being friend zone friends. The reason? Well honestly guys just have to much pride. Like really, for some reason a bunch of guys brains cannot compute the fact that they cannot obtain certain girls. They have to learn that girls want guy friends, just as much as guys want girls that are just friends. If things don't click, whatever man things didn't click. Self pity is very self destructive, you must learn to cope because if you don't things will eat you from the inside (like some gross flesh eating disease) and that's just so much worse. I'm pretty good at talking to people so if you get friend zoned you can talk to me, I invented that thing(not really but I am a founding father).

Yes I know friend zones hurt, but for the sake of your soul you have to get through it in a positive manner

Recognition.

Ok lets face it. We all LOVE when people notice us. Whether it's compliments or awards maybe even generally being noticed. We eat that shit like candy. A little recognition can make or break someones day. Next time you see someone do something cool, or unique, or even something different give them a high five and tell them they did a good job!

Today was my award ceremony at school and I won something i can't even pronounce, but guess what, I'M STOKED! I feel like I'm on top of the world, it's an amazing feeling to win a medal from some fancy organization!

Let's make a to do list for ourselves to try tomorrow to try to be better people, OK?

- Compliment a stranger

-Make a new friend

-Try something new and succeed at it

-Order something you never ate before

-Go out and experience the world

-Go to a party and not be a wall flower

-Try to get a compliment.

Now this list is pretty vague, and easily accomplishable. The first task is barley even a task, a simple "hey i like your hair" would work. The second a little more of a challenge but still obtainable! The third go to your local deli and order anything new. This fourth one is a little tricky, maybe you could try to take the "wrong train" and see were you end up. Number five, we're teenagers you'll find one I'm sure. Now the last task, be social you'll get complimented eventually, like I said we live off recognition.

Good Luck experiencing the world! and remember to enjoy all the recognition you can get!

Bromance, Shmomance, Now I Wear Tight Pants?

I don't even know were to begin when talking about this kid, so I guess that the start would be a good choice. This guy up there is my best friend Nick Scotti. I've know Nick since 06'. We met at a school called JHS William H. Carr 194, actually even to this day we hang out at that school yard. We met through some of our friends and friends of friends, it helped that the school wasn't too big either. I used to think that he was so cool because he could ollie, that was the coolest shit back in the day when we all legit sucked at skateboarding (worse then we are now). He also went out with like every girl that I had crush on, such a ladies man.

Nick was literally a full foot shorter then all of us back in the day, maybe that was another reason we all hung out with him? and he had super short hair. It was a pretty funny site, and all the girls were always running up to him and such. It seemed like half the world knew him at the time. We became much better friends over the summer of our 8th grade year, going to each others houses and such, and he even convinced me to buy xbox live, the most amazing thing ever. When I first met him I really had no clue how close we could get, we met so late in our junior high school year that I figured he'd be one of those at the time friends. What fueled our friendship was our personalities complimented each other pretty well, he was shy and quite, I was bubbly and friendly. It was like Jay and Silent Bob but not really.

Nick has also basically helped me shape my personality. Him and a few others were always inspiring me to get better at skateboarding, by constantly getting a lot better then me. He helped mold my taste in music and some of my style, along with a few of my other friends. He also helped me break away from the town I reside in, College Point. Now I know he has no clue how much he's done for me, but I really appreciate what he did without meaning to. Now some of you might read this and think "why's he sucking his dick so hard?". My response to you is honestly you don't have to read this, I thank you for visiting but this is about my best friend, the word bromance is in the title, what else did you expect?

We had a lot of memories together, from staying up all night and having breakfast, to him loosing his virginity to his girlfriend. We've always been there for each other (sometimes he takes a while to do his hair) and I hope we always will be. Actually, I know we always will be. We've never been in a serious fight, and that's weird because I have this thing were either you're my closest friend, a person i hate, or a person I don't know. It's a pretty big character flaw of mine but I've been working at it. But somehow Nick has managed to always stay my friend. I really appreciate that.

Just My Type: Dakota Fanning

Now this starlet is one we've seen in quite a few Movies, TV shows, ect. She has that figure that looks like she knows a thing or two about the cruel parts of the world. Her characters are usually pretty smart, going against the blonde persona. She's like German and Irish, that's a pretty legit combo, loves sausage and beer ;D. Pervs I was clearly taking about the Germans love of cylindrical tubes of meat, sicko. She's 16 and that's legit because we're almost the same age, i have a chance right?

Now when she comes onto screen she performs dazzlingly, her parts are like things I wish could be possible in real life. Like in Push she plays a character that could see the future. Like What The Eff, doesn't everyone dream of stuff like that? She also had a role in New Moon, now those of you that read my Blog (all zero of you) don't go and bash Twilight, I don't personally like it but jeez Stephanie Myer was poor and made herself like mad rich off it give her some credit. Anyway, she had the role of Jane, the super bad ass OD wild crazy powerful vampire who mercs everyone. Seriously what a beast.

Her style is so minimalist and cute. She always wears these like cutesy summer dress type things to all those movie premiers and award ceremonies. She's also pretty classy, you don't see her leaking photos of getting crunk (Emma Watson), Nudes, Being drunk in public (Kanye), or anything else. She's even trying to go back and be a regular high schooler. She also has a really nice voice, not on a Morgan Freeman level but its really nice.

If you don't know her, you've been living under a rock, go google "Push" or "Twilight Saga: New Moon" now.

Impersonal.

The world has become so impersonal over the past few years. Kids are becoming progressively more anti-social from the growth of our technology. It was only a few years ago that people used to go out and have conversations and meet new people. Now we all text and use Facebook to expand our networking.

It's not only communications that became less personal, but all aspect of life. We bury our dead, but we also launch flaming bits of metal at them to end their lives. We have relationships, but some of them get started on the inter-web, you can even order food via websites. What happened to the days that we actually had to personally communicate with people? Supposedly we are progressing in life but in the big picture it looks like we are regressing.

On the brighter side of things, texting and the interweb do a positive thing in which a person could be who ever they want to be. It allows people who normally don't talk much and give them the opportunity to have a place were they can vent, they have a way of tell people how they feel in an environment that they may not have to be face to face with the other person. If it wasn't so over used it may even be a good thing. But people have become so heavily dependent on it that it has become very negative.

I have some friends that I have known for years, yet some of them I've never even had a real conversation with. While talking to Miss 18 18 I realized that I've only had about 7 real conversations with her, 8 including last night. One of the things that were brought up is that we could talk to each other all day without having anything real to say (little bits of what is happening to us, moods we are having, ect.) . Looking back on that I think, thats really a beautiful thing that we can do that... but at the same time it's really sad. It's beautiful because we can connect well enough that we don't have to actually say anything, but still enjoy each other; however it's really sad because of the fact that it works. Impersonalities have become so accustomed to our daily life that we literally don't even realize it anymore.

Miss 18 18

Girls. Can't live with them, Can't stand them, makes you rip your hair out, and makes you wanna jump off a bridge. Yet we love them anyways. Guys never seem to have trouble getting girls, the only problem is getting the girl they actually want in their lives. I seem to be able to get girls to love me... just not the right one.

For bloggings sakes lets call her Miss 18 18, now i know statistically the chances that she actually runs into my blog are slim to none but you never know. Now I've been chasing this skirt for roughly 6 months and I still don't understand her. After a few hours of texting her last night I really wondered what makes her different from every other girl I've ever known? She is a person with symmetrical features who is quite amazing. Now the last part is opinionated, but whatever. Then it hit me. It's not fair to compare girls to one another because they are all unique individuals.

You can never judge exactly how things will go when talking to girls because they are all different. You don't know their circumstances, you don't know what they have been through. And when it comes to choosing your girl, you never know who it might be. You may think they are the one, but maybe your combined genetics and upbringings will be the ultimate factor in the end. Maybe your dream girl is just another fish in the sea, swimming along. Maybe the girl truly intended for you is somewhere in the Pacific while you're in the Atlantic, we should all just make like Dory and "just keep swimming"

Anyhoo back to Miss 18 18. As I thought about her and realized the reason she was different from all the other girls I knew was because she was different. I then thought of why she was different. She makes me smile, and the simple thought of being away from her makes me shake. I've heard of butterflies but damn she gives me earthquakes. Most girls can't make me feel that way, but she's not most girls.

Now don't think that i think I'm all high and mighty talking on this blog. Most of what i write is intended for me, and me talking to myself. I find blogging might be a much better way to spend finals week and an amazing way to get your feelings out. I guess here's were I thank John Ngan again, you'll probably see his name quite a few times over the next few blogs... mostly because he got me blogging again, unintentionally of course. Thanks John, maybe you'll read this one day.